Personal Foul
In my latest release Scrambling both of my heroes are hurt
while playing football. One of them sustains an injury to the disks in his
neck. It’s a common injury for any player who is tackled and my hero is a
quarterback who is scrambling, running the football down the field. He is tackled
by a player from the other team and goes down hard. The other player is
apologetic. He didn’t mean for the quarterback to be injured. In the case of my
other hero, he is deliberately injured by two players who are homophobes.
Picture the scene: The ball is down. The referee has blown
the whistle and out of nowhere, two large linebackers tackle the hero, one from
each side. One deliberately steps on his shin and breaks the hero’s leg. Of
course, the referee calls a personal foul on both players for the late hit, for
unnecessary roughness, but the damage is done. My hero’s career in the NFL is
over. Later, there’s an outcry by the ACLU and some LGBT organizations that my
hero’s rights were violated by these players. There is an investigation by the
NFL and the police that the hit was basically a hate crime on the field. My
hero was targeted and deliberately injured because he is openly gay.
Now most people couldn’t picture a 6’6”, 290 pound center as
a victim. They wouldn’t be able to imagine that such a big man could be
bullied. But he truly is a victim of bullying. He and his best friend (the
quarterback) are called names and bumped and shoved when the referees aren’t
looking. No one really does anything more serious or overt until the broken leg
incident several years after they come out. But still, the very fact that they
have to put up with name calling, dirty looks and the occasional shove makes
them victims.
There is a groundswell of support for gays in the NFL and
the other four major sports leagues to come out. Fear keeps them in the closet.
It’s not until players and others (ie owners like Kevin
McClatchy of the Pirates) leave the game that they come out. Organizations
like TheLastCloset.org are striving to
end the fear and asking that the commissioners in the five major sports leagues
support gay players and end homophobia in professional sports. Other
organizations like The Stand Up
Foundation are against bullying. Stand Up is the brain child of Ben Cohen a
former rugby player whose father died trying to protect someone from being
bullied.
So yeah. I have a hero in Scrambling who is basically
bullied despite his size. The focus of the book isn’t really this topic but it
is an essential part of the plot. I am who I am and this book is first and
foremost a romance with a grand HEA. I bring up the subject of homophobia and I
delve into what it would be like for gays in the NFL to come out. My story is
about truth and not living a lie and what people have to sacrifice when they do
live a lie. And these are not just lies about sexual orientation but lies about
love and emotion.
I guess you will just have to read the book to see what I
mean. But even if you don’t read it, you should think about checking out the
organizations I mentioned above and OutSports.com.
Support them if you can. Because even a big guy like my hero Evan can be
bullied and that is just not okay.
Thanks for having me, Tara! You’re the bestest!
Lex
Scrambling
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Blurb:
Evan McAdam has two constants in his life--football and his
friendship with Reed Matthews. From the age of six, Evan's played football
alongside Reed. In his teens, he realized he was gay and loved Reed, but fear
kept him from confiding his deepest emotions to his best friend.
When he and Reed are drafted to the L.A. Stars, Evan decides to come out. His decision impacts Reed who's been in the closet too. The two men struggle with secrets of unrequited love while facing the world as the first two openly gay NFL players.
When injury forces Evan to retire, the love he bears Reed can no longer be hidden. But will Reed be able to reciprocate, or will Evan lose both football and the man he's always loved?
When he and Reed are drafted to the L.A. Stars, Evan decides to come out. His decision impacts Reed who's been in the closet too. The two men struggle with secrets of unrequited love while facing the world as the first two openly gay NFL players.
When injury forces Evan to retire, the love he bears Reed can no longer be hidden. But will Reed be able to reciprocate, or will Evan lose both football and the man he's always loved?
Excerpt:
“You’re overwrought. You don’t know what you’re asking.”
Evan’s voice quivered a little, and Reed could feel the tension in his friend’s body. He could also sense an underlying current of fear in Evan’s voice although he had no idea what Evan could fear.
“Yes, I do. I want you to make love to me.”
There. He’d said it aloud. All his hopes and dreams since he was fifteen years old, laid out for Evan in words of one syllable. No mistaking them for anything except what they were, a blatant invitation for Evan to fuck him. He opened his mouth and made the invitation even more clear, the words driven by the emotion he’d held so long inside.
“I want you. I need to feel you touch me, taste me. I need to be with you. I want your arms around me, your cock inside me. I need to be with someone who cares about me. For sixteen years, it’s been you and me. Even Len and Bryce haven’t come between us. It’s always been you and me.”
Reed poked Evan’s chest with a finger when he said you and his own when he said me. Evan blinked and shook his head as if he were dazed. “I-I don’t understand. Where is this coming from?” he asked with a frown.
“It’s coming from deep inside me, Ev. Whenever something is wrong, you’re there for me and vice versa, although God knows it’s usually me with problems not you,” he said with a tinge of bitterness at the life destiny had given him. “This time, I need more than just hand-holding. Will you give it to me?”
He stared at the man he’d loved since they were kids. The man he’d shared everything with. The one he couldn’t imagine his life without. And he willed Evan to say yes.
A long, soft breath escaped Evan, tension leaving his big body. “Yes. You know I love you. I could never say no to anything you ever asked of me.”
Reed pushed himself against Evan’s chest, his hands coming up to frame the handsome, beloved face of his best friend. “Then just love me. Death is cold. I need to be warm.” He pressed his mouth to Evan’s, and a pleasure like none he’d ever experienced exploded inside him.
Evan’s lips were soft and warm, gentle in a way Reed hadn’t known men could be. He took control of the kiss, took control of Reed, his hands and his mouth leading Reed to ecstasy. Their tongues slid together, tentative in the way of new lovers but without urgency or fear, just a growing awareness and heat. Evan’s hands slipped over Reed’s shoulders and down his back, causing a slow burn in Reed’s veins.
The limo turned a corner, and they rocked, swaying with the movement of the car. Reed pulled his mouth from Evan’s, and they stared at each other, breathing hard.
“Are you sure? I don’t want to push you into something you don’t want,” he asked as pain threatened. He needed Evan, but he could walk away if Evan didn’t want him.
The big man pushed a trembling hand through his sandy hair. “I want it,” he replied, reaching for Reed’s hand. He pulled it toward him and pressed it into his lap.
Beneath his fingers, Reed could feel the hard ridge of Evan’s erection, and his heart sang in triumph. The evidence of Evan’s desire was enough for him tonight. He didn’t need to own Evan’s heart although he yearned to.
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Hi Tara. Hope all is well. I just read Scrambling & loved it! Not enough sports romances in any genre. Any tennis players in your future books lol.
ReplyDeleteOh sorry! Meant to say hi Lex! Loved this book, these guys etc. Frustrates me to no end that sports is the last frontier where people feel comfortable coming out. I could see something happening similar to the situation in the book. I hope that changes very soon! So don't enter me since I have your awesome book.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you liked Evan and Reed. You'll get some small doses of them in the next NFL book I write, which is Bryce's story. I could do tennis. My DH watches tennis a lot. I'd be more likely to write about motorsports or horse racing though. First, I need to get the next two Out in the NFL books written and I really need to get back to the Darkworld. I really agree with you about sports being the last frontier for gays and it shouldn't be that way.
DeleteGreat interview! I would love to read this one, since I seem to be on a sports kick right now! :)
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And I already follow your blog.
There's more sports stuff coming out all the time, Mandy! If you like sports and romance though, keep an eye out for a new blog called Romancing the Jock. Thanks for coming by!
DeleteLike any type of bullying, it's only when the people that have the power to enforce anti-bullying rules, stop looking the other way, that anything will really get better. And sadly it's usually because their pocket book is hit that any kind of change comes about.
ReplyDeleteSports that engage in heavy bodily contact just make is easier to harass an intended target without consequences to the bully. And it not news that coaches and even owners have put out bounties on certain athletes, whether for their orientation or playing abilities. In the macho and homophobic sports world, it's even harder for an athlete to come out, as endorsements and job earnings can be lost on the smallest down turn of public opinion. And if by chance they are being traded to another, possibly second rate team, even if it true, it makes it almost impossible to claim discrimination.
It's only through the courage of the trailblazers that the closet door in professional sports has been opened a few inches for our next generation of athletes. Men like Greg Louganis (granted he didn't come out till he was through swimming; but he took the heat and the hits when he did,) who helped open the way for athlete's like Johnny Weir,(Olympic skater) and Mathew Mitchem (Olympic diver)to be able to be open about their sexuality. And while these examples are in the more solitary sports, and not done as professionals, it still has taken a lot of courage to put themselves out there for good or bad. And it would have been taboo to mention even 10 year ago. Progress no matter how small, is still progress.
Have always loved books with sports themes, I will look forwards to reading it, Lex!
In my book the Stars PR director Darcy Jensen tells Evan and Reed that they will be picked on by other teams and players for "daring to be fags in the NFL." And they are, but she also puts a really good LGBT spin on things which ups their popularity with the public. The bigger the groundswell of acceptance and support can be brought to bear, the easier the trailblazers will have it.
DeleteI'm looking forward to reading how you handle this issue!
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ReplyDeleteI really enjoyed reading this post. Bullying is the action of cowards and always will be. I am going to check out the links you provided. I also can't wait to read about Evan and Reed. There's so much emotion in the blurb. Thanks for this chance.
Carol L
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You're right of course. And people pick on those who are different because of fear. There's really a lot of fear going round in this book. More so than my other books. But if you like high angst I think you'll like it. It's really about two young men who let their fears rule their lives far too long and keep them from being happy. The finally let go of the fear, grow up emotionally and find each other.
DeleteThis sounds like such an amazing book. I know that it's been in the news a lot lately, about professional athletes coming out while they're still playing. Most athletes in the NFL waited until they were retired before coming out, in order to protect themselves and their careers. I think it's cool to imagine what the NFL would be like with openly gay players playing without fear of bad recriminations. Scrambling sounds like an amazing book, and I can't wait to read it.
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Jessewave didn't care for the angst in this story but she couldn't find fault with my sex scenes or anything related to football. I tried to make it as realistic as possible, but obviously, what would happen if a player came out is pure speculation on my part.
DeleteLove Wave's reviews and I understand where she's coming from. We've all read romances of any genre where a little communication would fix everything. What made this book different for me: it wasn't a typical friends to lovers. They knew each other as children and figured out their sexuality in connection with their BFF. This friendship was so integral that I understood their resistance to taking a risk. It wasn't a typical "misunderstanding" conflict, for me anyway
DeleteThanks for getting it, Mary! I think we've all been there where we'd do anything to preserve a friendship that we'd be lost without. The fear of that loss is what drives you to do irrational things. In Evan and Reed's case, it kept them silent about the depth of their feelings for each other.
DeleteHi Tara & Lex
ReplyDeleteI'd love a chance to win a copy of Scrambling, which sounds riveting.
I look forward to the day when a person's sexuality never results in a raised eyebrow, let alone anything more.
Sue
corieltauviqueen at yahoo dot co dot uk
Amen and then some!
DeleteSounds like a great book. Please count me in. Thanks!
ReplyDeletegisu29(at)yahoo(dot)com
Thanks for coming by GiGi!
DeleteSounds Awesome, Very Excited to read this!
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Thank you, CeNedria! I hope you like it if you get the change to read it.
DeleteLove, love sports m/m--thanks so much for the opportunity! I'd also recommend that everyone check out You Can Play, which works to eliminate homophobia in team sports. There's been a heartening number of pro athletes working on its behalf (especially in the NHL--another reason why I love hockey so much!), and the story behind it is very touching. The website is youcanplayproject.org.
ReplyDelete--Trix, vitajex(at)aol(dot)com
Hi Lex! 'Scrambling' sounds like a great story and one i'd like to read. I love the way you like to blow away stereotypes. Good luck with the book!
DeleteI have checked out You Can Play myself. Everyone should check it out and support it if you can.
DeleteThank you, Lena. I try! Or at least, I think I do! LOL Thanks for your support!
DeleteTara waiting on some Balls from YOU!!
ReplyDeleteLex Ya know I love ya #2 baby Fire is always #1.
Cyn/Cinders
Cyn, I know you'll never love any of my guys as much as Holden and Garret. Honestly though, wait until I have Bryce and Joss (the 2nd NFL book) done. I adore these two. Right now, I'm so in love with them I'm beside myself. They are just beautiful together.
DeleteThe book sounds lovely! I don't read about very many athletes so this sounds cool! Congrats on the release! Thanks for talking about bullying, it is so important to know it can happen to anyone.
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Thanks, Juliana. This book isn't just a romance. It does bring light to the fears of gays in pro sports and what they would have to endure if they came out. Everyone knows how they would be treated and it's a shame.
DeleteScrambling sounds great. I've been reading more sports related recently.
ReplyDeletesmurfettev AT gmail DOT com
Good for you, Sheri! They're a lot of fun to read. I read lots of em myself.
DeleteHi Lex
ReplyDeleteThe book sounds great, have read some good reviews - and with your post, raises lots of issues. Can only look forward to when talent is enough.
Iwill be looking at Ben Cohen's foundation, thanks for bringing it to my attention
Suze
Littlesuze at hotmail dot com
Thanks, Suze. Ben's foundation does great work and he sure is easy on the eyes! ;)
DeleteAbsolutely love the sound of the book. I love football players being the heroes in the books and can't find enough of them.
ReplyDeletejrobe 10689 at aol com
Hi Chris! I have two more coming after this so there's more to be had!
DeleteGreat post. I cannot wait to read this book. Loved the excerpt. You can see the emotions in this book already.
ReplyDeleteGabrielle
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Thanks, Gabrielle. I tried really hard to make sure these guys sounded real when it came to their fears.
DeleteProfessional athletes live in such a strange world. What's really going on??
ReplyDeletebrendurbanist AT gmail DOT com
I wish I knew! They are very afraid to come out when just about everywhere else gays are coming out.
ReplyDeletelove football and will enjoy reading this book.
ReplyDeletecvsimpkins@msn.com
Hi Lex-- Elizabeth wants to enter but can't get in on her phone, so i'm entering for her. Here is her email:
ReplyDeletemimirose41209 at hotmail dot com : )
Put all the names in a hat and let my daughter Nikki draw one out and...SUE is the winner! I'll send her an email and get her a copy of Scrambling ASAP. Thank you so much to everyone who came by here to comment and discuss gays in pro sports. And a super big thank you to Tara for having me!
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